Somehow I still end up in the same place...
I pray and wish so hard for these feelings to go away...
They wont.
They stay.
So here I am inwardly feeling so torn apart,
but on the outside I just smile big.
I dont quite know how to handle this...
either direction I go, I ache.
If I leave, if I stay...
my feelings never go away.
but when I stay, ...
everything feels twice as hard to handle.
So why dont I leave?
You'd think I'd learn...
so why havent I?
Why am I still here?
