Why does he keep breaking promises? Why would he make promises
he doesn't wanna keep?
he doesn't wanna keep?
Not that he can't, but he just changes his mind because of what he wants.
Why does he keep disappointing me?
OR
Why do I always trust him? Why do I always have hope, "maybe this time"?
He's done this since I met him, and I still wait for him to change.
I guess... I'm more disappointed in myself.
For always trusting.
Believing.
Hoping.
...
...
Most of all,
disappointed for
wasting time
waiting.
Thank you for your comments on my blog. I didn't even notice them until today, sorry! I just usually write my feelings out on my blog to get them out and leave it there in the abyss that is the internet and I never really look back on any of them to even see if anyone else is reading them, let alone commenting on them. So I'm sorry it's taken me so long to return any type of response!
ReplyDeleteThat said, I really appreciate what you said and the fact that you relate to my emo musings so much. : ) I write them mostly to help myself get my thoughts straight, but now knowing that they might be helping someone else, is really amazing, flattering, and more then I would have imagined my secretly kept blog would do. So thank you for that.
However, I'm sorry it is my older posts that you're relating to, but I understand why. Heartbreak is horrible and it can take months if not years to get over. It took me a full year almost to get over the almost six year relationship you read about in my earlier posts. But let me tell you this, no matter how crappy and sad you feel now, it does it easier.. and eventually better. And while your heart may never completely move on from the person you were so in love with, it does repair itself eventually and allows you to move on. I promise you that. (even though a year ago I would have never believed that myself).
So have faith, (not in god, but in love). And I hope things get better for you soon & you find love again, with someone who actually appreciates you for all that you are. Because you seem pretty amazing from what I've read on your own blog.
Feel free to keep in touch.
And know that you've inspired me to start writing more personal posts on my own blog.