Hanging my heart for healing... finally.

This week...

I've been hanging my broken heart for all to see

I think tonight, something broke in me.

So tired of pretending to not care,

Just cuz friends say "Get over it"

So tired of holding everything in,

and actually believing...

I can JUST "Get over it"

This week....

I've been shutting out the world,

Cuz I just wanna heal.

I dont wanna hear crap,

from those who cant deal.

I'm ready to "Get over it",

but first..

My heart has some things to say!

This week...

I have learned its time to walk,

My own path

A new path

I love my friends,

but I'm jumping off

the pedastal

I wont do everything just right.

I will make mistakes

But at least I'm trying to live

again.... finally.

So I spoke up, finally, to someone. I grew a spine I guess.. or I grew mine back, its always been there, just out of operation lately, lol. Its amazing how strong we can be in the midst of turmoil, but how weak and tired we feel when its over. I have been weak, and slowly finding my strength. I'm glad I was honest.
I recognized tho, how much going thru so much friend drama brought more chaos into the relationship. Its amazing what we will put up with, stay thru, support, when we love someone enough. But sometimes going thru all that, even for love, is what breaks us.
I was thinking to- how everything is connected. So far I thought much of my pain and frustrations lately were from the break up... but amazingly, dealing with a hard friendship released so so much. Showing me how it connected some of my frustration in the relationship, I was relating it to him cuz he was there.. but really he did nothing. And now tonight.. my heart spoke, and it released me from more than I thought. And this is why my heart needs a voice.. to get over everything I've kept silent on. So this blog started off with healing of a broken relationship, but just may very well become healing in general. Letting my heart finally speak!